ME~

0 comment(s) / 19:56

opppsss paper 1 screwed, as usual.
okay eng kinda stupid cos we nvr did any prac except for a informal letter writing at the start of the year.
but then come to think about it, cellinaxie sucha shibai teacher.
blah eng was damn nervous.
stopped very long cos thinking of wat to write for situational.
damn sian. nvr give us much stimulus. then die lo.
somemore ask for some stupid learning journey with to tell the truth, i didnt learn anything from it anyway:P
finally done with situational, damn shit like damn short leh.
everyone like used two pieces of paper. me only used one. and not even full 2 pgs._.

compo okay la. although abit uncertain of wat the qn wants. lan eng:D
but then checked with the others, i didnt go out of point at least:D
so i did recount, cos its the easiest obviously.
somemore me de grammer so lan, suit to write recount:D
i wrote on a very interesting topic:D at least to me la:D
only jiahuan knew wat i wrote. hahahha im creative:D

then chi. gonghan sux ttm T.T
must give the consequences. mine only in one paragraph. fine anything._.
zao zhang zao dao quite okay:D
cos this time de topic rather easy. or at least i read the article before. so i knew wat to write:D
heng heng this time topic okay. the other two idk how to write O.o
but then hor abit nothing to write leh.
shit lo. my li chang and suggestion like abit crap.
although i feel that 3 and half pages alot, but i crap alot, plus cancelled alot of stuff too:X

ahhahah tmr chem test. shit leh so many topics. plus is de hard topics.
i should go back to study hor. hahahha
this should be the last post before mye ends.
how i hope everything end quickly so that i wont be so gulity of myself:x
didnt study much. even if i studied i only studied very little:X
then everything just scan through.
wth wat happened to me? ahahhaha START STUDYING SERIOUSLY!
blah should go back to chem now:D jiayous to me.
electrolysis left:D and thats quite okay:D

0 comment(s) / 22:02

its handoverT.T
after 3 plus years in HO, everything is over now.
lets talk about HO and ergao in my four years in HO;D

sec1:D
blah idk why i join HO too;D
initially wanted to join CO but then i cant find the booth._.
then some HO senior pull me and xueyi. thats how we ended up joining HO.
then choose sections. hhaha okay we chose by drawing lots.
and thats when, my section is ERGAO~

actually sec1 nothing much. cos im damn antisocial.
hahaha i dun talk to people, seniors. cos that time i still dunno anyone xD
sec1s always had to go sectionals for basic skills;D
and shiqi teach well;D at least i learn quite okay.
but then i find cca very boring, wanted to quit at first.
after i joined dazu, cca was more fun and i didnt quit anymore;D

hahha still rmb my first ever audition in front of the seniors;D after we joined dazu;D
super nervous;D somemore im the last one leh.
cca was becoming more fun^^ got to know jiahuan and guihui and the seniors;D
i could still rmb the time me gh jh and other sec1 mates and amanda and ruth keep bullying shiqi and siewchen. it was fun^^ sweet wrappers esp;D
seriously i think sec1 nothing much.

and farewell;D first ever thing to do that is related to HO and not just prac:D

did the banner;D although like abit plain, but then we did it.

everytime must go back sch or stay back after cca to do;D

okay then the farewell chalet.

really enjoyed it alot. its hard for a sec1 to enjoy farewell.

got to know the seniors well. and also some rather old ancients;D

sec2:D

first ever performance in sec1 oritentation;D

blah sec2 also nothing much.

prac play bully seniors blah...

after that shiqi that batch handover:x

okay i shall not say anymore. bad memories are meant to be erased.

amanda became our new SL;D and me de new asl;D

first ever handover dinner at pizza hut. funfun^^

then eerrr farewell? shall not say la hor;D

still a hot topic arnd us;D and didnt enjoy much as sec1 due to alot of unreasonable reasons._.

but still its for shiqi de batch.

and thats wat matters:D cos shiqi and siewchen are our very nice seniors;D

chiong farewell card like siao O.o and fake presents rawks~

sec3:D

ohmy im a sec3 le? cant believe itT.T

starting to get more interesting?

2009 harmonica orchestra SYF--> silver.

i know that silver broke alot of ppl heart, cos it kinda waste of our effort.

but still, its for the experience. and i really enjoyed prac with my dear frens, seniors and juniors, i know everyone tired from all these. but i loved cca alot back days;D

went a short break after syf due to mye.

after that, had handover.

okay la i didnt go due to some reasons, but alot of ppl said dun go also okay.

blah listen from other ppl lo.

then knew that handover is a torture for them, cos our handover present was jiaolian._.

haha okay i became the sl, but then i wasnt there.

so i didnt know hows first prac without the seniors. quite chaotic i heard:D

first ever sectional led by me came the nxt sectional date.

quite okay i guess. at that time, i didnt know its a torture of being the sl.

hahaah i still thought it was fun, and since i wanted the sl post, i was satisfied.

then problems and problems arose.

first it was angela, then the twins, then all my juniors starting to give me headache.

all of them are starting to climb on top of my head.

i then knew the problem that existed in ergao rather late. like dunno how many months since i got the post. i started to man yuan alot. and soon i started to not like cca.

still, i enjoyed the authority i had, the authority of ordering ppl arnd and they could only listen to me. blah i sounded rather bad, but im trying to find some ways to make me happy.

including torturing the juniors, stricter?

blah all these rather late of the year, or maybe the start of the year._.

and farewell, our turn to plan for it.

i think its super unfair for only us to plan it. i mean like only 8 ppl planning for it and the others are just paying money and throwing everything to us.

wanted to plan rather early like sept. then nobody even cares.

after eoy then plan everything._. i think maybe we are too rush in everything._.

the nights before the farewell, chaotic.

and i had to plan for farewell(okay la not much), seniors presents, and post to post present.

walaos leh. everything chiong in that one months. rushing...

but okay most of my juniors are rather cooperative;D and jiahuan helped to design the cards. not much of a problem.

post to post wasted me alot of my time and effort. okay la not exactly waste cos its for amanda. but then its the present i put in the greatest effort in it:D

then yup farewell came.

everything seems wrong. alot of leftover food, blahblah.

hahahah but i think more is better than less. although i spent dunno how much money on it, i think everything still seems okay. i just wanna the seniors and juniors to enjoy:D

ya ya although i slept alot this time, cos im damn tired from the last few days, still i enjoyed it alot alot alot. maybe cos its the effort of us:D

sec4s:D

the most tiring and disappointing and angry year in HO.

maybe due to more experience in HO? i got more expectation of the juniors.

but then all of them still so bu zheng qi.

i dunno how disappointed i got in them. talking nicely to them, scold them, nothing seems to work. until later, i just got flared up and tired that i just gave up.

i dun wanna care about the juniors anymore.

they wanna become lan, their problem, their standard drop, their problem, they were scolded by junyang they all, their problem.

i dunno why i used to wei hu for them in the past.

i dunno how many times i had talked back to jy just cos of them. its like so bu zi de.

okay then my anger sure died down very fast.

april i started to treat them more nicely, seeing handover is coming soon.

and boommz, handover is here. the day that im leaving HO, the day when my all memories about HO, no matter its good or bad, is here.

all i had is the wonderful memories that my frens, seniors or juniors gave to me.

blah handover-ed to sokchin. its the last day that im a sl.

and here im today. without any cca for me to relax, angry or disappoint over.

for now, books shall be my friends. sure of cos i will miss my cca, my juniors, but still i got to learn to get over with it.

if HO and ergao remains in my heart, perharps i will study better. its the way that the seniors and the juniors wanna me to do. to excel in O lvl.

so to everyone: thanks for making my memories in HO a wonderful one. esp to my friends: xy gh jh jo jy sam dexter. i will rmb ure for the rest of my life. i will rmb the wonderful times in HO. the fun stuff we do in our dear HO room. i will miss u, my dear HO room and of cos froggy.

to seniors: thanks for teaching me so well. until now i only learned about the tough things ure have to go through. i love you all♥ and i will never forget ure even we entered the club of ancients:D hahahh same grp now huh...

to juniors: thanks for the wonderful memories ure gave me too:D i promise ure to forget the bad memories and only rmb the goods of each of ure. better listen to ur new sl! if not i will come back and slaughter u all;D but dun worry i will come back often and visit ure, no matter how busy im:D must grow up and dun act like kids. dun give ur sl problems hor. later she die then no more sl alr:D i then dun wanna retain:D rmb: ergao is ♥. love ergao as if its one of ure beloved:D

HO really is such a wonderful cca.

may not be in the eye of others, but to me, it defintely is:D

my heart will always leave a space for HO and ergao. i will never forget the three years plus memories:/

but for now, lets just leave a space for my books too:D

JIAYOUS EVERYONE:D I HAVE AMPLE FAITH IN ALL OF U:D AND ALSO, JIAYOUS IN UR UPCOMING MYE AND COMPEITITION:D

0 comment(s) / 15:13

HAPPY 16 BIRTHDAY TO ME;D
ALSO HAPPY 250 POSTS;D

hahahha this yr birthday is so much more better than last yr;D
okay first lets acknowledge ppl who bother to sms me;DD
hazel, michelle lim, huixian, xueyi, jairia, clarissa, junyang, zixing, josephine, michelle koh and benjamin;DD improvement~ LOVE YOU ALL PEEPS;D

and of on facebook too;D
natasha, amelia, aunt peggy, mandylee, junyang, valerie, khaichong, charlotte, xiaodex, guihui and xinghua;D hahahha addition of old classmates like 6A'06 and 1K'07;DD

hahhahaha LOVE ALL PEEPS THAT MAKE MY BIRTHDAY A MEMORABLE ONE;D
hahha first receieved a advance birthday present(wallet) from my darling juniors: sokchin and jinyan.
then later receieved the second yet also a advance birthday present(a bunny softtoy, a bunny-like card and a pretty necklace) from xueyi guihui jiahuan josephine junyang and sam;D i really appreciate the lovely card. sure nid alot effort one;D
I LOVE HO;DD
then third my mum gave me an hongbao of 20 bucks;DD asked me to buy watever i want;D
hahhahaha yay i love all my birthday presents;D
and maybe more to come.
at least huixian still owe me one;D and me owe myself too;D
but then i have no idea wat to buy for myself;DD

blah lets highlight the wonderful HO frens part;D
ha okay first i had to wait for them for nearly one and half hr to get the card done;D
hahhaha can see is last min, but im still happy.
secretive too. haha but im clever;D
playing with diff stuff. piano bell talking crap sleep and more;D
hahaha done le. bdae song like funernal._.
then went bedok long john to eat dinner;D they treat me with $4;D
eat eat talk crap. jo went home first;D
after that played the very dead zhongjimima;D
jiahuan left early for her tuitionT.T i wanted to go home study oral at first.
but then in the end went playground and talk again._.
probably is one of the last time we come together and talk about HO and crapT.T
suddenly rainT.T all hide in the pathetic small shelther in the playground.
went home like 40min later. after the rain stopped;D

from today onwards, im joining the 16th club;D
and able to watch NC16;DD yay~
but still im young;D 16 isnt old;DDD

wat should i buy for myself? T.T

0 comment(s) / 15:09

AHAHHAHAHA MAJOR SCREWED UP FOR ORAL T.T
and i studied real hard for itT.T

blah first, idk why, of all days, im having a flu today.
second, realised nvr bring ic. wanna go out take but then the SCs say dun nid._. unreliable.
third, teacher scold me for not bringing ic, obviously. i like just sit without her telling me to do so.
fourth, paused very long, stutter alot. shit la.
picture was okay. conversation was the worst partT.T
okay i answered like how pri sch pupils would.
then my sentences like not complete, singlish? PLUS I NVR FINISH MY SENTENCE><
i think the teacher think im mad. cos i seriously dunno wat to say.
okay she asked me if can change timetable how would i change.
i wanted to say like reduce eng lessons, but then obviously cant.
im contradicting, and i keep saying .... ya._.
shit shit shit la. i hate oral. hope at least i can get a B3? i dun want B4T.T

ytd was last official cca. but then nothing much la.
just that idk why gh was so high ytd. hahhaha laughter was nvr ending.
then ya, jiaolian went off. hahahha went on celebrating my bdae;D
oh ya, sokchin and jinyan too;DD
THANKS EVERYONE I LOVE YOU ALL;D
i shall elaborate more tmr;D hahahha
and after that went dinner at long john. blah
then started talking about cca again._.
but its like the last time we are talking about it and caring about it.
wanted to go home at 7.30 to study oral.
in the end, went home at 8plus._.

today last day of being 15T.T
but nothing special leh;DD
hahhaha opg bdae today. i wonder how 4J celebrate for her;D

i shall update more tmr;DD
and clever ppl will know why;DD

0 comment(s) / 18:31

ohmy im supposed to be studying bio for tmr CT now.
yet im still here. blah too tired from studying alr.
eye and cell division really kills. still got one genetics lehT.T
hope i can complete studying today. :P

lessons were boring. plus today weather like super hot.
i think like 37 degree la. freaking hot.. im even sweating when im sitting.
plus got back three tests today. chi phys eng
chi and phys okay la;D im satisfied.
but walaos eng kenesai man. single digit again:X
plus this is like a damn low digit. poor F9T.T
hiiieee F9, i finally see you after dunno how many yrsT.T
but but but i dun want see you again. shooo~

im supposed to be low today.
but frens always rawks;D idk why jiahuan so high today;D
not bad, she spread her high-ness to me;D and of cos fun was never ending;DD

two more weeks to handover;D
shit man why am i countdowning? maybe cos im tired of everything alr.
but still HO gives me alot of good memorises.
forgetting about the bads and rmb the goods. i cant bear to leave HO.
i mean like four years in HO, obviously to me HO is the best cca ever.
to other ppl frm other cca or even our own HO ppl, they might not feel this way.
i dunno why the juniors hate cca so much?
i dunno why they are causing me so many problems.
but still nothing will change.
at least to me, HO is the best;D
i cant forget my four years of life in HO, giving me all the joys or tears;D

i wonder why do time have to go so fast? four years past. SO QUICKLY! im still thinking im still a junior in HO. four years of, be it wonderful or horrible memorises, i will nvr forget the happy times HO gave me. just two more weeks, and everything will be over:/ sometimes im happy to leave cos i wanna abandon all the problems. but still, i love HO and time proves it! from a junior, to a senior, becoming sl of ergao, and finally handovering. haizz... no matter where im, my heart will also be a part of HO, be a part of ergao. I LOVE HO♥

0 comment(s) / 20:21

im glad that todays more happy day;D
at least i dun really get pissed off or sad that much now.
see? time is such effective healer;D not mention beauty sleep too;DD

lessons were boring.
less than a month to MYE. blah and we still got so many chapts to go.
plus now not in the mood to study either.
so foresee that MYE is going to be gg man...

today cca is sooo boring. i dun see a point in having cca.
jiaolian didnt come. mr tai nvr come.
waste our effort in cleaning up HO room.
but air-con isnt MUCH of a problem. i hope mr tai will help us more and stop relying on ppl;D
prac normal songs. boring...
then sectionals. didnt prac much since everyone knows how to play except the fast part.
the whole half an hr slack and talk and play;D
but me jh teaching sec1s. hahha teaching the art of using the tongue;D
blah cca is so boring these days. sooo no point. why no handover soonT.T

this weekend quite free;D
cos only have chem tys and ss hwk to do.
but sure not doing ss. so left chem;D
and nxt week bio phys emaths oral test;D
not bad ah only three important tests.
but then got bio and phys lehT.T so many stuff to doT.T

and just realise my bdae is drawing near. *hints;D
hahahaha no la not exactly anticipate this time.
its 16 this time. 16 isnt exactly a nice age leh.
but i will enjoy my years of being 15 for another a week plus;D

time is a excellent healer. but sometimes i hate time for being pasting too fast o.o

0 comment(s) / 17:11

even if u apologise, nothing will change.
i mean like obviously ur apology is so unsincere. still expect me to forgive you?
frm words i can infer and guess that u didnt learn anything.
thats the reason why im disappointed.

YOUR APOLOGY MEANS NOTHING.
EVER SINCE THOSE WORDS CAME FRM UR MIND/MOUTH, NOTHING WILL CHANGE.
WAT WILL AN APOLOGY DO? ERASE ALL THOSE WORDS?
ITS SERIOUSLY USELESS. I SHOULD JUST HECK CARE AGAIN.

ya, i too, believe in the domino theory.
one did this, and im disappointed in everyone.
obviously i know they are not in the wrong. but im just cant be bother about everyone, each and everyone.
so i will just hide in my cave and sleep throughout till handover.

every single day in cca is just shit ah.
no matter how much passion i have for HO, problems still arose.
zzz i guess after handover, i will become a happy girl.
now i cant wait for handover. is the only thing that makes me happy;DD

0 comment(s) / 18:52

GRRRRRR PISSED OFF AT SOME STUPID JUNIOR!

now i been thinking, wat for do i do so much about cca?
others dun care! my cca points still same as other ppl! noboby recognised it too!
I BEEN WASTING MY ENERGY FOR THE PAST FOUR YEARS!
AND ESPECIALLY THE YEAR I GOTTEN THE SL POST!

nvm nvm! i been telling myself:
THREE MORE WEEKS! THREE MORE WEEKS! AND I DUN HV TO CARE ANYMORE!
seriously theres just too many stuffs to take care of!
and im tired of everything! im tired of babyfeeding the juniors! im tired of protecting my juniors frm other ppl's criticism or watever!
cos nobody appreciate it! nobody appreciates wat i did!
so why am i still doing so much for? waste my effort!
and im de kind of 你做初一,我做十五de person!
i guess for this three weeks, im going to return back to my original personality?

now? i couldnt wait for handover!
so wat if i mistreat my juniors, they dun deserve anything!
i shouldnt have treat them so well in the first place.
and i pity the nxt batch of junior taking over the cca.

okay then i shall countdown to handover;D
and wat the use of scolding/talking/crying over them?
nothing will work!
I SHALL NOT CARE ANYMORE!

im supposed to be happy cos of various reasons.
flared up like siao. shit man. i think my attitude sux!
tmr chem SPA and chi test! jiayous to me man!

i think im like getting pissed off or even flared up for not much reasons these few months/weeks? i dunno wats wrong with me! this isnt me since sec1 to sec3. i think life sux! i think everything in the world sux! why should i even be so caring about the juniors? i should be thinking about myself and no one else!

0 comment(s) / 21:14

past few days was fun^^
ytd was having dialogue session with the juniors;D
then clean-up again for dear VP._.
hahahha not bad this time not much stuff to do la;D
this time clean up not done by me:D is the guys leh[:
so we did the noticeboard:D hahhaha noticeboard is so much nicer now;D
and HO room neater now;D and sec1s joined dazu alr;DD

and today cca;D
okay before that was eng remedial.
so useless. i learned nothing;D
told cellina xie that i had to go at 3. if not idk wat time she rattle finish._.
after that went sectionals, without harmocT.T
blah was teaching sec1 de song. my sec1 quite pro;D

then dazu. pirates suddenly like play so fast O.O
new rule is irritiating. but nvm three more weeks, and byebye:D
after that went ikea:D
cabbed to ikea;D as usual alot of noise._.
the uncle like irritiated liao;D but we have interesting topics;D
buy buy buy. took long time leh.
was running arnd ikea giant court._. my poor leg.
wanted to take shuttle bus back to bedok;D
but then decided to cab back:D
ohmy like three ppl sent me back leh. taxi still must u-turn._.
but nevertheless we had fun^^ idk wen de nxt time. not much i guess;D

today chi gonghan still okay:D hahaha managed to finish. but then idk how to complain._.
ytd phys SPA was abit hard. my gradient all these damn weird.
hopefully chem SPA is gonna to be okay. must rmb wear safety googles!!
whole week very busy leh. then why am i still here?
sian... i nid to rest more._.
im tired. shall go sleep alr;D byebye;D

0 comment(s) / 20:22

i shall not post about this week;D
as u can see, this week is spammed with emo posts.
so ya, this week is horrendous!
no matter is tests, lessons, cca, or watever!

yup tmr going to malaysia;D
hhahahha abit random. but then i can just to rest and play for this long weekend!
looking forward;D cos i can get to sleep more than 12 hrs a day?
somemore no com to use, com time for sleeping~
i gonna sleep like siao this weekend! so that i wont be so tired nxt week.

grrr. i nid a printer man.
seriously elearning sux. i wanna bring elearning back to malaysia and do leh.
but then my printer sux! it doesnt wanna print for me.
shit la. then when i do the wksht?
nxt week whole day for the week damn busy.
cca, cca stuff, ergao stuff, 5 tests blahblah.
sian... alot of hwk waiting and piling for me tooT.T

hahhaha nothing to post.
handover is still far away~
a part sad, a part happy. i dunno wat im supposed to do._.
okay going to play la;D byebye;D

p.s. yay xueyi u rawks;DD