ME~

0 comment(s) / 21:33

okay with one thing, and disappointed in another thing.
im seriously tired of everything.
when one thing is finally off my mind, another thing that worries me appears again.
should i run away again?

hist test today screwed as well.
i know i studied and do the best i could. so i trying not to be disappointed in myself.
couldnt finish the paper. okay i expected it.
i tried to write faster and abbreviate my sentence/meanings.
but then i stared at the sources like damn long leh.
sian ytd de emaths test also. screwed!
tmr bio SPA. jiayous to me;D like nothing to study. dun feel safe leh.

im trying to promise myself, like i used to, to be more
optimistic and look at better side of things. i will think more about the good
side, and less about the bad side. not meaning to abandon the problem. but i
will try my best to solve them. even though i know it isnt easy. for i know,
optimistic and not giving up is one of my principle.

0 comment(s) / 18:41

i dun get it why the situation becomes like this.
DO YOU HATE ME OR WAT? you gonna let me know?
or am i just like a stranger/invisible to you? pls dun treat me like this.
others appear to be fine with you, which can explain u are fine.
but why am i the exceptional? dun trust me anymore?
i just couldnt be happy anymore, with your attitude!

hist sbq tmr sure going to be die. going back to study again. bad feeling about tmr...
plus bio SPA? i dun hv energy to anticipate any things anymore.

sometimes i wonder wat the hell am i doing. i mean, im tired! IM REALLY
TIRED OF MY LIFE. how i hope to go to sleep and nvr wake up again. stress is piling on me. i have nowhere to explode my true feelings. things are so
different now. now i been thinking wat the hell have i been doing for the past
15 years of my life! plus all the stupid things which i cant even explain.
CANT I JUST REST AND FORGET EVERYTHING? the world isnt where im supposed to live.

0 comment(s) / 20:19

i dread this. i dread of you! all thses stupid things!
pls pls pls dun influence me anymore. I CANT STAND IT!
okay i dun get it why, wat happened. but pls im not a thing/someone who is invisible! i hv my own feelings. so pls consider my thoughts and feelings. pls? i beg you to._.

blah currently still thinking how to study for tmr emaths test.
i guess i have to study tmr morning. but hopefully i can study finish within that half hr._.

0 comment(s) / 15:04

yawns... sch reopened alrT.T
nah thats one week ago alr. now week one past T.T

sch is boring. every teacher is like chionging.
but then nobody knows that everyone is tired alr.
not much mood to listen lessons.
plus these few days de atmosphere weird weird de._.

life is so boring. that negative feeling is like coming back leh.
sian. this week got 5 tests.
eng phys screwed. got this feeling that my eng single digit one.
phys screwed like some shit.
nah~ i alr told myself to dun care alr! im alr too disappointed in myself.

earth hour in AHS was stupid.
okay first de stupid annoucement alr distracted me from doing my emaths test.
then suddenly halfway, lights and fans off le.
walaos cant concentrate leh. i hvnt finish my paper at that time!
somemore i think im like dying alr lo.
blah then bio later was even more stupid.
was doing last prac on SPA. but then no lights. have difficulties seeing the board!
but then overall not bad leh. at least i dun feel hot;DD

cca ytd learnt new song--> mambo #5
heard it in youtube. super different from wat we learning leh, i tink xD
and is super hard! cos its kinda of beat song.
blah. somemore our beat all these damn luan;DD
dazu super luan;D jiaolian like give up alr;D
ohwow, he praised us for the exchange thingy. although i think got screwed;D

then had sectional, learning mambo again.
but then for that one and half hr, we learned like one page of the song._.
thats like damn slow. cos the beat all these damn luan.
i was clapping the beat all the way. in the end i cant learn much.
but nvm;D i can learn nxt time;DD
not bad luh;D ytd sectional quite fruitful.
at least that one page prac until perfect;D okay la not that perfect.
but at least better than dazu de time;D
sooo LETS CONTINUE JIAYOUS BA ERGAO~

stupid jy and sam bully my sec1s.
idiots! i told them alr that they dunno/hvnt learn how to play zhi zhu!
but then according to nicole and benjamin, they made them play!
some idiots!
i tink the whole world is like looking down on ergao!
jiaolian, 'downstairs' blahblah... ahahhaha I HATE THIS!

ohmy i tink my whole post is about cca and ergao.
three weeks later de handover later,i will hv nothing to write about?
sian... handover is like two or three weeks later. time passes very fast._.
so i going to make sure that i enjoy my remaining time in HO!
so so so, i will keep all my unhappiness and anger away!

nxt week although not much tests, but then got SPA!!
sian sian sian. i hope i wouldnt screw SPA like last yr D:
ahahhaha just realise that i forgot to bring back my emaths tys when theres test on mon!
ahah sian how? actually i thought is on fri
but then fri is a good friday leh! sian... gg to emaths test.
but i look forward to good friday;DD can rest leh;DD
hahahhahah so nothing else to post le.
actually i tink this blog is like so useless;D LOL

0 comment(s) / 12:32

currently waiting for fb to upload the photosT.T fb is laggy._.
stupid fb gives alot of problemsT.T

past few days were busy, but nevertheless some are fun^^
sat--> stayed at homeT.T

sun--> went arcade with family;D
cos the top-up thingy about to expire liaoT.T
but then ehub de arcade not much to play. stayed awhile then went home alr;D
not much tickets earned this timeT.T couldnt exchange much stuff. sian...

mon--> phys extra lesson and cca.
phys was sian. couldnt listen much stuff. no mood for lessons la;D
besides, ergao having sectionals like nxt door. couldnt concentrate moreT.T
lol after lesson, went cca;D
having sectionals;D hahahha so much more fun than lesson;D
after cca everyone zao alr;D so we didnt stay either;D
me also nowhere go. so went homeT.T boring...

tues--> stayed at home

wed--> cca
had dazuT.T then awhile sectionals;D solo and going arnd and arnd is fun^^
nid go back HO room. czh wanna take some photos._.
okay thats retarded;D
after that went pasir ris for cycling~

ohyea before that was deciding wat to eat.
but then everyone dun nid this and that;D so mafan;D
in the end ate mac._. jo didnt join usT.T
after that went pasir ris park;D the bus damn slow so we spam photos as usual;D

went to rent bike;D the uncle damn busy;D
one double and two singles;D double quite fun^^
went to the extreme left to play and rest first;D
but then the wind very cooling;D so we stayed rather long;D
was drawing and spamming photos;D jump shots;DD
and went back to the shop to buy water;D im dying of thirst;D
hahaha went to extreme right;D
me lagging like some shit._. damn tired leh
hahahhaa low tide there;D opps saw alot of mushy words and letters there._.
rest then went extreme left again;D
hahhaah then damn cool ah;D high tide change to low tide leh;D
sit there rather long cos the wind is so super nice;DD
opps in the end charged for being over time._.

then went to foodcourt to rest and eat;D
hahahha then have some sharing session._.
opps to me._. but lets forget it;D wonder how it started in the first place;D
talked rather long;D
frm foodcourt to bedok and we stayed until 8 plus._.
hahahha but then i dun care too;D
best of frens nvr keep any secrets;DD

thurs--> exchange and ergao dinner.
went to sch at arnd 11 plus._.
i woke up late;DD hahaha for once leh;D i was sleeping so nicely;D
so went sch late;D but then gh and jh also dun nid me either;D
hahah went 85 to buy lunch for them._.
but then forgot take spoon._. gh came out to go take spoon with me;D
went to some coffee shop._. the person was like looking at me;X
didnt nid to climb the gate this time;D cos its open;DD

then prac for exchange. jiaolian suddenly changed the seating arrangement. irritiating;X
hahhaha then took bus to vjc;D
but then the bus so small and this time the whole HO going. obviously not enough seat.
but then everyone must sit if not got fine._.
no choice lo. squeeze lo. nvr heard of such rule :/

reached;D the auditorium damn cold._.
somemore outside raining._.
was playing phone while waiting for our turn. opps :/
finally our turn. blah love theme for godfather and zhi zhu.
quite screwed :X although not as bad as i thought, but then still screwed T.T
last performance for usT.T in the end last performance was some kenesai exchangeT.T
BUT HO RAWKS;DD I LOVE HO~

after our turn, most of us went to the canteen;X opps darren zheng was like rushing us back.
hahaha he damn kelian. cos we all very slow;D
in the end, we went back, last sch performing le;D
after that got some speech about the esplanade harmoc concert.
although i understand the feeling and thoughts, but i think is useless.
our sch HO standard dropping like some shit.
if we go perform, sure die lo._. nobody would know harmoc.
but anw, i thought we alr rejected, although i thought is a good chance to prac for nxt yr syf._.

took photo. went back.
got two buses this time. so no nid squeeze;D
us wanna wait for the nxt bus. but was forced to separate.
so me sit with eliza.
AND I CANT BELIEVE WE KEEP ZI KUA-ING ABOUT OURSELVES THE WHOLE TIME!
eliza ah~ influence me now._.
went sch. was released;D
but then cos still quite early;D
so we stayed while waiting for time;D
hahahah ergao was like totally influenced by eliza :X
went to mrt arnd 5.30 pangsehed xueyi and the guys;D sry:X

hahahah cos got alot of the rain bugs. then ran down the sch;D
hahaha but then started lame-ing agian^^
haha reached bugis;D thought we were late, but no one reached yet;D
so a bunch of pink ppl sitting at the side.
ruth still bluffed me that she overshot._.
lol but then amanda ruth reached same time._.
went to find siewchen. but then cos she will be late;D
so we went to the steamboat first;D
hahahah damn ex leh. but managed to find a okay shop;D $16 T.T

then take food and drinks;D waited for siewchen;D
okay arrived and eat and drink;D i spam myself with drinks;D
wth me keep running here and there. my food was totally coldT.T
after eating, playing and spam photos as usual;D
PI JIU MEI WAS THE FUNNIEST JOKE AH;DD
hahhaha blah did alot of stupid stuff;D
after that took grp photo;D but then eliza and michelle disappeared by that timeT.T
took mrt home. crowded like some shit and reached home at 10.30;D

hooray~ ergao dinner rawks;D cos i planned one;D
hahahha no la no la;D but it was fun^^
and exchange although screwed, that doesnt make me think bad about HO;D
HO AND ERGAO RAWKS~

finishing my hwk soon;D jiayous;D
and i cant believe its friday alrT.T
sch about to reopen soonT.T
but before that, i will make sure that i will enjoy my hol~
hahahah bye ppl;D

0 comment(s) / 15:41

awww wasnt able to post on thurs. i forgot whyT.T
break the nice chain;D hahaha fri too;D

finally start of hol liao;D
but then is not called hol;D since there are so many works to doT.T
hopefully i can finish all my work by latest fri?
then sat sun i can play;D

and ytd got back result slip;D
hahahha yay i rawks;D couldnt be any more satisfied;D
may seem normal to other ppl, but is considered very good to me le;D
hooray me;D my worst subject is still eng, but is finally like B3;D
hahahha idk how long i nvr get B3 for eng le;DD
okay shall not mention any more about result;D f not ppl jealous;D hahha

ytd cca was okay;D
hahhah learn new song--> zhi zhu;D
hahaha finally a song that is not as sucky as others. although still quite sucky;D
jiayous learning;D hope can use this song for exchange;D
cos the two other songs very sian;D

after cca, went kcf for dinner with xy gh jh;D
haha very long time nvr go out eat le. although jo nvr comeT.T
hahahha did alot of stupid things as usual;D
videos and photos in facebook will help me explain;DD
hahahah we exchange bags for fun^^
ohman i became guihui._. shit why i become turtle? ._.
but at least her bag is alot lighter than mine;D
went home super early like at 7;D cos jh got tuition;D
took alot of photos again;D

i will try to post as much as i can;D since im bored and forever nothing to do;D
hhahahaa so look forward to the nxt post;D

0 comment(s) / 21:09

able to blog all day is fun^^ although i still hv alot of undone hwkT.T
IT RAINED TODAY! AFTER IDK HOW MANY DAYS AGO;DD

nah~ lets talk about something else;D
my results? okay;D
agar calculated le;D not bad la;D
cos consider got improve;D but then still far away from my expectation;D
but i quite satisfied alr;D
i dun wanna become emo girl cos of results. cos thats dumb;D

today learning journey.
zzz its so boring. learned nothing despite its called LEARNING JOURNEY;D
the tour guide damn kaobei. dun like her._.
WTH SHE GOT THE SAME NAME AS ME!
insult my name leh. some idiot tour guide!
everything also say 'i expect all to get correct' blah blah.
walaos leh wanna bash her!

hahha okay enough of the stupid tour guide;D
went to URA first then the civic district;D
the place not bad ah;D got air-con although today quite cold due to the rain;D
hahhaha finding wheres our home is fun^^
then break;D went civic district;D
quite boring. but then only stayed there for 5 min;D
class photo ftw;DD hahhahah
then went home;D reached home rather late cos the stupid buses!!

this whole week i damn kelian leh.
everyday must stay back.
mon tues thurs fri cca, wed learning journeyT.T
in the end, reached home, do hwk, got time then use comT.T
but then i always managed to find time to use com;DD
hahaah cos hwk anyhow and faster done;D
anw is chi hwk ma;D so i also dun care one;D

hahahha tmr most likely not posting. if got stuff to;D
hopefully fri got dinner;D very long time nvr go dinner le leh;D
zzz damn sian of cca now._. exchange cmi~

hahhahah and to whoever it may concern:
im no longer pissed now;D so pls stop thinking the wrong way;D

hahahha idk wat i talking to;D so byebye;D

0 comment(s) / 21:18

yay~ since got time let share a little post;D
results? some satisfied;D some not D;
but i dun wanna care alr;D or rather i have low expectation of myself;D

tests was kinda of shit._. amaths was disappointing leh.
ever since long time no single digit liao. hist repeated today^^
okay why am i so happy? idk maybe cos long time nvr see single digit liao._.
but lucky got some other tests to pull me up frm F9 to A2;D great increase;D
chi was suprising;D CH was DAMN SUPRISING. say yay to SS;DD
others not very sure yet. i think my sci sure A2 or less.
eng sure C5 or C6. yay flunked CA.
but then got L1R5 below 10 i very happy alr;DD

today no remedial. cant pon cca. but then got eng hwkT.T
ended up doing during sectional;D everyone so fascinated about the compre._.
hhahaha compre sux. i dunno how to do so manyyyyy qns.
in the end check ans or ask other ppl._.

sectional was kinda shit cos nothing do.
trying to get them to prac the ganqing and the shaking of harmoc;D
chey in the end jy sam have to come and spoil everything.
somemore they come at such wrong time, during our break._.
blah make them solo. but then nobody like them. cos everyone make mistakes.
i ask them solo nothing happen. quite nice also. blah idiots!
wth criticise my juniors. oh pls in wat position._.
nah maybe can la. but then i dun like ppl to criticise my juniors or ergao.
wth. i do hwk also cant ah. im supposed to hv my remedial!
wth ask me solo. is like wth. also nvr ask jh or xy solo.
only me doing my hwk ma! zzz
i was like damn pissed off;D
i rebutted them;D which i also kinda shocked by myself;D
see ppl i rawks._.
I SERIOUSLY DUN LIKE PPL TO SCOLD MY JUNIORS OR MY BELOVED SECTION! zz

lessons was boring;D finished my last test for the term on mon;D
today no common test;D
i wanted to use the period to do my chi!
but then cellina xie go steal the period for some dumb eng._.
i cant believed that i survived through the whole two periods;D

tmr learning journey;D wonder how its going to be;D
hope is fun^^ last class to go shit;X

oh shit i still owe alot of hwk yet im still here.
chi tys and eng compre._.
damn sian. chi sux!
not the subject. is the teacher!
but now no mood to do;X
tmr still got learning journey. no time do much stuffT.T

blah these few days mood up and down.
hope it will get better soon;D
looking forward to the cycling part and ergao dinner;D
and certainly not cca prac, exchange, hwk or proj._.

oh pls. u know by doing this, that means that u dun trust me? u dun hv confidence in me? or just looked down on me? oh pls i have the status and power to do watever i want. and YOUS are in no position to guan me. criticise me and others in front of other ppl? dun URE think that ure hv no rights to do that? so wat u hv a higher status as me? regarding that, im sure that i more power to do wat i want, not you! i have pride, not to let you step down on it!

0 comment(s) / 21:02

yay~ new blogskin;D new tagboard;D
hhahahah going to start everything fresh;D

this week was quite okay;D at least i not as pissed as last week;D
this week only three tests--> chem chi and bio;D
chem was okay. hahaha i got back the results alr. A1~
long time no A1 le leh. scare me. i thought i flunked._.
chi and bio seriously flunk.
and chengjoyun a stupid teacher._.
walaos leh nvr do hwk must go see her. nvr go see her green form._.
me nvr go see her. she threatened give green form. wth :X
but then in the end she also nvr give^^ hahha only scoldT.T
oh pls, dun she think that she give alot of hwk? like almost every chi lesson got hwk._.

and eng remedial started on tuesT.T
hhaha was quite okay. she started teaching us some sentence structure.
although like very pri sch, but thats was i just nid;D
but then eng remedial must everyday write one paragraph of nonsenseT.T
hahha until now i still hvnt started writing. hehehhe none of us did anything yet;D
not bad;D eng remedial allows me to pon cca awhile;D
lets see how my asl--> guihui and jiahuan will do when i not arnd;DD

and tues no cca. idk why. suddenly receive msg frm juniors.
then went to ask jy.
wth no cca also nvr tell me.
i think the juniors were pissed ;X
was sms-ing during ss. new lab cant go facebook.
hahhaha before ss went lab also for eng;D
in the end went facebook to chat with guihui valerie huixian. hahhaha they were at nxt lab to me;D fun fun^^

omg lessons were boring as usual T.T
i wonder wat will happen to all my results.
i got this feeling that i going to screw my CA. but i dun want to care liaos.
i mean, i really tired from disappointing myself everytime teachers give back tests.
i just gonna to do my best and i know it myself;D
ohmy i super optimistic today^^
finally~ after all the sad and disappointing and angry stuffs;D

and today got cca.
although most ppl dun hv because of excel fair?
jianlian came. know new version of ju hua tai
but then it sux! IT REALLY SUX.
not only is all the kenasai parts, all ergao parts are sucking oneT.T
today as usual lungs pain. cant blast cant shout. cant suck in air too ]:
i rather jiaolian just give us the old version one.
relearn pirates and godfather;D
pirates sux leh. ergao de super hard part. got sharp alrT.T
the whole dazu cant playT.T
godfather very boring and slow.
ahhhh~ all super kenasai and boring songs. no life leh.
exchange cmi le. somemore is our last performance le i thinkT.T

nxt week super free~ yay!
only mon got emaths test. other days im super free~
which means play play play^^ unitl hol.
hol damn ke lian leh. only one week then got alot of things to do;D
but im still looking foward to ergao dinner which im going to organise soon, and the cycling part with HO frens;DD
so going to jiayous;D
nxt week last week of sch~ after that tests and hwk and SPA leT.T