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Saturday, March 21, 2009
 seagull to the sun. every seagull's dream. would i be like it? although u may seem near, but u could fall and get drown, and be far far away frm ur dream- the sun, the beautiful horizon! hols is going to end again... 1 week, time really pass very fast. and i hate it. cos the life revolving hwk,test, studies and cca is going to come back once again. yet now, it is going to be more than i expected. sometimes, sometimes i really wonder, wat is the use of living in the crucial world? is just because to study, do follow ur dream, to do wat u are supposed to do? sometimes how i really hope, to be in the double sci class, or even the 7subj class. at least, they dun hv the stress that is coming frm a triple sci class. they can hv much more freedom, at least not so much to study. in double sci class u can flunk ur lit and ss. at least still got core geog/hist to take cover for R1. in 7subj class u can take 1 less subj--> not so much trouble studying the rest. triple sci really sux. although we can get more chances and fame. but seriously, wat is the use? studies really really sux. eng really sux cos i am super weak in it. chi really sux cos of opg, although i think chi quite okay. phys really sux cos of the stupid kinematics, and i still wanna sleep in mr ong class. bio really sux cos i dun understand it, although bio rawks but cos of ____ amaths really sux cos i cant seem to do any qns, i think i gonna to fail. ss really sux cos it just really sux. and u know something? ahs keep pushing us all the things into our head. although the juniors are more pathetic than us, but i just cant seem to understand everything. plus, my class super super clever. roarssss.... i cant stand it! and tests just cant seem to stop coming. is after 1 test after another 1 test and after another and after another.... and i hv to chiong everything in just one day. well, i only study tests on the day before cos my memory span is only 2 hrs:D and one day only have 24 hrs! minus the 9 hrs in sch. minus the 2 hrs of cca. minus the 8 hrs of sleeping(i nid 8 hrs of sleep) minus the 1-2 hrs of other extra things. i only have about 3 hrs to study.(someone help me check the maths pls) is seriously not enough. sometimes i really hope i can be like weishan and chelsea they all, pon cca. at least they dun hv to take part in syf. all that time then i can use them to study. and wat is the use of taking part in syf, i seriously think is useless. wat can we do about gold or gwh? for our pride? our cca points? oh pls, down deep in my heart, all those arent important. and wat is the use of being a committee member? a SL? or watever? for cca points? it sux. cca point arent going to help in L1R5 anymore. ): then wat the use? they only add to ur burden, the weight on ur shoulder. i rather be a normal person, then i can concentrate more on studies. wat the use of following my dream? i am really tired, reall tired! i am tired of my dream, tired of worrying that the seagull will fall and drown. although yes, i am near to it, but miracle do happen, seagull may lose its strength of flying and just give up. to add on, i still hv some family matter which i really hate it alot. adults are so complex. i will nvr understand adults. but oh well, i might as well just heck care them. feeling abit down and stress. everyone is putting so much stress on me. and i have to juggle between studies and cca. it is very hard to juggle between two things. but, i guess i will be all right in a few moment later. sian sian sian! have to chiong bio and tingxie later. i think i will just leave bio alone for a while. i am going to play like siao tmr. is the last day of the break, so it really break time. except i going have to learn tingxie. opg damn sux ah, tingxie on the first day of the term. lucky i finished my hwk, except eng cos i dunno how to do some. oh well, going to play. |
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